So therefore quit because a point has yet to be found. How dull. Scribble, scribble, scribble and don't write a damn thing because muses are of no use. They are a bunch of fat guys sitting in a basement smoking French cigarettes because it makes them fancy. Wait for them to deign you important enough for a glance...fat chance...you are unimportant.
The question that remains is whether or not you know it. one hundred bucks says you don't. Rare it is that making any type of difference is in your future. Forget the freak. You're just nature Lost and lonely. Futile and frustrated....Such a great way for you to spend a life.